A year ago today I might have been strolling through the Andes or drinking mate in the sunshine, or maybe I was just trying to figure out how I was going to survive in Argentina at all. But here I am, a year later - wiser, more traveled, and much more addicted to caffeine. My world has grown; I have grown.
A lot changes in a year...
I have changed and I see it in everything I do. My self-awareness grew exponentially and I am able to put reason and explanation to my actions. I refuse to let people treat me poorly, because god knows I have had enough of that. I prefer a few close friends to a plethora of acquaintances. Similarly, I spend time alone and I enjoy my time alone. I listen much better than I used to and I make a conscious effort to be an active listener. I do not use technology while eating. My clothes are more comfortable than chic. I am more comfortable being the person I truly am.
So what about the world?
Define the world - my world, your world, or the planet we live on.
Coming home is odd; everyone else is also a year older, has another years worth of experiences and stories, and perhaps even their own caffeine addiction. It is so easy to forget that while you are plowing forward through time and space, everyone else is too - their lives didn't stop when you left them and neither did the worlds. People I considered my closest friends are now strangers wearing the same University of Rome sweatshirt, my house is filled with objects I have never seen and the entirety of the political climate and social norms has been flipped on its head.
Feeling lost is not unknown to me.
With everything that has changed, myself included, I am in the process of readjusting. A month and a half ago, I could have told you exactly who I was down to the minute details. Today things are a little fuzzy but they are getting clearer. I know where I want to go and can guess at which paths will take me there. Maybe in a year I will revisit this blogpost and have guessed wrong about who I hope to become and what I want to accomplish but maybe, just maybe, I will get it right.
Besitos.
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